I am laying in bed and listening to birds sing. I’m so grateful to be able to relax, even for a little while. The weather in Columbus is looking promising.
How is your morning looking so far?
Today is my last day at my office.
I can not express how sad I am. I have taken a new and very exciting job in a different field and I am totally pumped about it. It will really be difficult to replace what I have had here.
I have had family, and support, and joy. I have struggled and grown. I have learned so much! And they gave me the space to do so.
I think it is really difficult to appreciate our jobs. No matter what they are. It’s difficult to not resent work just a little bit. But practicing gratitude in my office has really let me see what I have been gifted with. Even in times when it was really hard.
Are you in a job you don’t love? Are you looking for another job and can’t get anywhere with the process.
Let me tell you a little secret.
I was really miserable here for a long time, looking outside to support what was missing, and the damage was spilling over at home. I was crying and fighting. I was in a very resistant place. And I was looking for more of this? For a new job that felt like where I was vibrationally? Law of attraction is not going to give you a new job when you can’t stand where you are. It will just give you more of the same. It was not until I learned to love my job that I was able to find a new one. Now I get to really reflect on what the last two years have meant. I have bonded with incredible people, I have grown exponentially. I have honed in skills that are absolutely essential not only for survival, but to thrive. I owe a lot to a place I didn’t once love.
The world has such a funny sense of duality that way. Growing pains, expanding your consciousness, all of these things are so incredibly uncomfortable. But it’s what makes us great. It’s what makes it worth the journey.
What journey are you on?
Have a blessed day,
No one cares about Tuesday, why would they? It’s not the beginning, or the end, or some climactic event in the week.
But what can we learn about Tuesday? It’s a day full of the simple things, full of processes that help move the needle toward what we love and what we want. A day to help us focus our creations and plan what we want out of that day, that moment, or that week. It’s a day where we don’t have to prepare or celebrate, but just be.
And how cool is that?
Over the past several years I have had an incredibly interesting journey. I have been working on finding my core self, trying to figure out how to use the gifts God has given me. How to use my story and my hardships as something to drive me forward. A lot has changed over the past several weeks. I’m changing jobs, i’m coming out of a season of hardship, and now I get to just be. I get to switch out the coffee for the chamomile and breathe. I get to stop and smell the flowers, and just be.
What does Tuesday look like for you?
The last time I wrote a blog post here, I was 22, just engaged to my now husband, and living in Upstate New York. I was an aspiring chef, writer and confused millennial deep in the heart of the great recession. And then things got real. Very, very, very real. In the past 5 years since i’ve written in this blog, this amazing blog that saved my sanity from a deep depression, and a very hard season in my life, I have emerged with three beautiful children, a wonderful husband whom I love, and a fantastic job. I have learned so much along the way.
I received a text last night from my sister Stephi and she said “you need to start Bon Bon Vivant again” and I agree. I have been through an extremely transformational process and where I was writing from a very naive perspective at 22 I feel so much more connected with myself as a woman, with my creative abilities, with my view on the world, and hell, i’m a MOM now.
Since my sons were born (Liam, 2 and my twins Christopher and Dominic, 1) I have been in this battle to create my life to give to them what I never had and alleviate the burdens that the world places on all of us and give them the best life they could possibly ask for. I worked my ass off. My husband has built a business from the ground up and it is expanding everyday. What i’m realizing now, is that its time to cool it on the ambition, and watch all the beauty and magic that’s happening around me. I want to serve others and the world whether it is through food, or conversation or even just words floating out there in the internet to help them find people find their ideal lives. And in doing so, hopefully they will not have to face the many hardships that I had to in getting to where I am now.
So BBV is going to shift a little. We are still going to talk about food, obviously, but I would like to add more. I want to talk about what nourishes our soul. What we need as human beings and especially as women to become whatever we want to be and however we invision that looking for ourselves. Because it truly does look different to everyone. We get (and are blessed!) to create our own lives.
I don’t want this to feel like a big old stiff Oprah session, I still want this to be fun and relaxed, because anyone who knows me knows that my seriousness last for about 10 minutes, maybe an hour if i’m doing a presentation, but even then the fun comes out. We should get to enjoy this process and fight for what we want in a loving way. I am still in my 20s! I don’t want to sit around getting wrinkles about my life! I want to enjoy it for fuck’s sake, and i’m sure you do too.
Let’s go on a little journey, shall we?